He is God.
All knowing and all powerful,
Surveying his followers,
Cold, calculating attachment.
He can fix everything.
He is queen.
They cluster around him,
Wanting his love, his attention,
His word, his approval, his law.
He can fix everything.
He is concierge.
He knows how to please them,
They fall into his arms
manipulated, oblivious all his.
He can fix everything.
He is solitary.
They can’t understand him,
a mystery, unquestioned,
Undisputed, unargued, unseen.
He can fix everything.
He is scared.
The risk of being found out,
The fear of being understood,
Recognized, discovered, known.
He can fix everything.
He is human.
But
Nothing seems fair and nothing seems right
When a life is snatched into the night
An empty feeling, a heavy heart
Cold readjustment in the dark
Life seems duller, the lines are blurred
We struggle to remember what we learned
The impact they had upon our lives
The little things that make you cry
No emotion seems quite correct
No thoughts or logic can connect
You sit alone, your hands gone numb
You sit and wonder what you've done
You think about the life you live
Then hate yourself for how it is
You scratch and claw yourself for meaning
You hate yourself for even being
You wonder why its always those
Who see no cons, only the
He is God.
All knowing and all powerful,
Surveying his followers,
Cold, calculating attachment.
He can fix everything.
He is queen.
They cluster around him,
Wanting his love, his attention,
His word, his approval, his law.
He can fix everything.
He is concierge.
He knows how to please them,
They fall into his arms
manipulated, oblivious all his.
He can fix everything.
He is solitary.
They can’t understand him,
a mystery, unquestioned,
Undisputed, unargued, unseen.
He can fix everything.
He is scared.
The risk of being found out,
The fear of being understood,
Recognized, discovered, known.
He can fix everything.
He is human.
But
Joni, 17 year old semi-professional photographer from Auckland, NZ.
I love the sound of Laura Marling. I hate the sound of vacuum cleaners. I have a violent emotional response to hospitals. I analyse everything. I'm spiritual but not religious. I think I'd rather be deaf than blind. I live in the past. I miss myself more than anything. I'm afraid of being alone. I've watched The Princess Bride at least a hundred times. I believe every dystopian novel I read. I'm avoiding the inevitable. I'm a unicorn.
Favourite Movies
Rubber, Mean Girls, Heavenly Creatures
Favourite TV Shows
Doctor Who, Bones, Castle, Buffy the Vampire slayer,
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Tegan and Sara, The Beatles, Laura Marling, Coconut Records, Gotye, The Jezabels
Favourite Books
Spilled Water, The Full Spectrum, Girl With The Dragon Tattoo
I've been letting things slip by lately, well, no more!
Despite being to lazy to apply for early uni entry next year will not be wasted!
I am going to finish the draft of my novella, or novelette, before the new year even hits.
I am going to get my new camera and USE IT. Everywhere, everything. I am going to finally do the train station photo shoot (if the abandoned train station even still exists) and finally get around to working more on some of my old projects.
I am going to start singing again, maybe even taking violin lessons again and I am going to get into music. Starting with actually following through with the bazillion covers I
I'm pretty sure I'm not really meant to call it a 'gig' as such, but whatever. Tomorrow I'm taking the photos for the look book of Indigo Six (possibly to be renamed) an um and coming vintage clothing line. Sure the only reason I get to do it is because the creator of this business is my sister... but whatever. An opportunity is an opportunity.
Working with a proper model (also happens to be my sister :P), doing a completely different type of photography inside a professional studio at Sky TV and borrowing a twin lense Nikon D90 as my sony is in need of repair.... Exciting? I think yes.
So wish me luck, I might just need it :P hehe
Well... soo much has been happening lately.... Life of Joni is a little bit hetic.
My spare time is ever so fleeting... and whatever time i do have is on the computer, trying to vent out recent confusion and other feelings into some sort of art.
The art it has created is sadly not worthy of teh internets. Maybe something soon... maybe.
There's a big shoot being planned... there will be much glitter but I'd rather be working on something conceptual than all flashy.
Eventually I might even get an idea.
I have two new lenses for my camera, they're pretty awesome... and I feel really professional having different lenses for different types
Heyyyy Joni. Thought you'd like to know that I had a dream about you last night. Not in a creepy way at all, you were just in my house, so we went to the beach. You give excellent dream hugs, by the way.
Anyways, I don't really remember what happened, but it was really realistic and I cried when I woke up because it wasn't real.